“According to Aristotle, there is always a reason for everything that happens. Your experiences are designed to shape you, define you and, hopefully, grow you into the mightiest you possible.”
I’ve always clung to this idea that everything happens for a reason. This feeling is amplified this year by the misery that has become my ‘career’. I’m tired… I’m near defeat… and it’s not because of the kids. It’s never because of the kids. I gain an escape with my growing tummy, which has validated that all this is just meant to be… this is all happening for a reason. I convince myself that God is readying me for the new role that awaits in motherhood and to accept that work is secondary. I’ve definitely come to the conclusion that happiness and health should always be chosen over wealth… always! Lesson learnt, thanks…
So the word is officially out. We personally share the news with our nearest and dearest, whilst everyone else finds out the old-fashioned way… Facebook. We’re inundated with well wishes and are spoilt with a bounty of infant paraphernalia. In the span of a few weeks we have accumulated a full nursery including a cot, change table, a pram, pregnancy books, along with baby toys, bottles, nappies and tiny clothes… and we haven’t even spent a cent yet. We might be able to make a profit here? Don’t be ridiculous… We are overawed by the love and generosity shown to us by family and friends.
My OCD is now in full swing as I continue to frantically ‘google’ every pregnancy symptom and possible conditions recorded. Hubby and I have also downloaded an app that updates us on the weekly growth and changes of our baby. We’re amazed at how quickly everything is formed. Pointing to the screen and then to my stomach, I’m amazed that that is growing in there. I am now an official pregnancy expert… I need a personalised shirt and sign… Didn’t you hear? pregnancy expert, right here!
I still have no clue about babies. I haven’t quite read that far yet… maybe I’m still in a bit of denial… As ‘they’ say, ignorance is bliss. I’m still terrified when someone tries to hand me a human baby… hey… just because I’m growing one doesn’t mean I want to hold yours. This is made worse by the fact that my day-to-day conversations have now been reduced to baby talk, and those in whom have never shown much interest in my wellbeing, are all of a sudden intrigued with how I’m feeling. Wow, I don’t think I asked, but please, tell me more about your fascinating birth story…. go on…. I’m so mean sometimes… in my head. So when’s this mystical maternal drive supposed to kick in?
All jokes aside, the initial fears of parenthood and being poor forever are diminishing and we’re excited for the new direction and possibilities that will come of this little life. Everything happens for a reason… right?